First Love is not Last Love ~songfic~

fic ttg OCku, Mirai.
Mosaic Kakera lyric thanks to Gendou

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"Mozaiku kakera hitotsu hitotsu tsunagi awasete egaite yuku
Anata ga kureta deai to wakare mo"
[One by one, I join together and draw the mosaic fragments
And also the encounters and partings that you gave me]

Aku terus menyanyi.

Tak peduli semua orang memandangku, lekat, karena mereka telah mencintaiku gara-gara laguku.

"Konna hazu ja nai sou omotte nemuri
Mezamereba itsumo no kawaranai karamawari
Imi mo naku kurikaeshi"
[“It shouldn’t be like this,” I sleep while thinking so
And when I wake up, my usual, unchanging, and fruitless efforts
Meaninglessly repeat]

Kangen, kangen.

Aku kangen padanya.

Cinta pertamaku.

Rambut pendek coklatnya, matanya yang memancarkan semangat.

"Mozaiku kakera hiroi atsumeteta "umaku ikiru tame no sube"
Ibitsu na sore ga utsukushiku mieta n da
Tsuyogari nagara tsumazuki nagara erabinuita michi no ue de
Hagare ochite wa umaranai kakera"
[The “method for living well” that I’d gathered up in mosaic fragments
It was distorted but seemed beautiful
While I bluff, while I stumble on the road that I’ve chosen to stick to until the end
The fragments peel off and fall, but they won’t be buried]

Kenapa dunia kejam, aku tak boleh bertemu dengannya lagi.

Satu ciuman di pipi belumlah cukup untuk membuatnya benar benar cinta padaku.

Benar...seharusnya kuberikan ciuman di bibirnya.

"Sorezore no iji o shikitsumeta sekai
Dare ni mo yuzurenai mono ga aru hazu na no ni
Irodori o ki ni shiteru"
[In the world that laid out the respective willpowers
Even though there should be something that I can’t surrender to anyone
I’m worrying about the coloring]

Orang bilang; Cinta pertama takkan kembali.

Memang.

Aku seharusnya mencari seorang lelaki untuk menemaniku....

Tapi aku tak bisa melupakan cinta pertamaku.

Akan sulit kelak nanti

"Mozaiku kakera samazama na iro ya katachi ni miserarenagara
Nozomisugiteta "wakage no itari" yo
Kokoro no sukima ai no semento o shinjite wa nagashikonde
Keshite tokeau koto no nai kakera"
[While I was enchanted by the various colors and shapes of the mosaic fragments
I desired too much for the “extremity of youth”
In the crevice of my heart, I believe in the cement of love and it pours in
On the fragments that won’t ever meld together]

Jadi...Aku harus melupakannya dulu...

Tapi tak bisa....

Aku tersiksa oleh kenangan masa laluku sendiri....

"Kontorasuto ga kirei da kara gyaku ni dekoboko de ii
Nan to naku junban o mattenaide jibun-nari no kotae o mitsukeyou"
[Because the contrast is beautiful, it’s fine if it’s uneven on the contrary
Somehow, without waiting for my turn, I’ll find the answer to becoming myself]


Baiklah....Aku akan mencoba melupakannya....

Tak bisa...

tak bisa...

Tapi, dia akan menangis kalau mengetahui aku belum bisa melupakannya....

"Mozaiku kakera azayaka ni utsusu kako no uso mo ayamachi mo
Keshite shimaitai to omoeba omou hodo
Kurikaereba soko ni aru sutaato rain mada susun ja inai
Mou ichido yume o hiroiatsumete be your fall
Mozaiku kakera hitotsu hitotsu tsunagiawasete egaite yuku
Anata ga kureta deai to wakare mo"
[The mosaic fragments vividly reflect the lies and mistakes of my past
The more I think about them, the more I want to erase them
If they repeat, then I still won’t advance from the starting line there
I’ll try gathering up dreams again
One by one, I join together and draw the mosaic fragments
And also the encounters and partings that you gave me]

Karena itu.....Aku harus melupakannya.

Agar dia bahagia.

Dan aku harus memulai kehidupanku sendiri.

--maybe continued--

beres~